Well, hello.
It's been a while.
I truly have missed writing here. I have missed my little space in this big blogging world. Most of all, I have missed pouring out my heart and filling empty, white space with letters and words.
It's late, so I will keep this short. Suffice it to say, I am still having seizures. The boys are still having their many developmental delays. My heart still breaks when I think about how behind they are, and inside I truly do ache over it. I am doing everything in my power to help them. Not the least of which is to revamp our entire diet.
I thought we ate reasonably healthy before, but I realize now I had no clue. We are now doing the GAPS (Gut and Psychology Syndrome) Diet, which is a very strict diet intended to heal the gut, and when the gut is healed, the brain follows. The boys and I need this. Months ago, I found out I have Candida (yeast in the gut), and this very well could be causing my seizures. The mother's gut flora gets passed on to her babies, and so my boys received the lovely present from me, and in turn, they are having developmental delays. This is what I have pieced together, though no doctor has told me this, because, what good are traditional medical doctors today? Excuse me for saying so. Give me someone who practices homeopathy or holistic methods or even herbal remedies.
So now, we drink broth with every meal. We eat tons of meat and veggies. We consume no sugar except honey and what already exists in fruit and dates. I make EVERYTHING from scratch. The only thing we eat out of a package is an occasional Larabar. There is a long list of things we cannot eat, such as potatoes and corn. Celtic sea salt is healthy and good for you, and that is added to meats liberally. Even lard from healthy animals, raised the way God intended, is good for you. We buy our meats straight from a farm, and while we are spending more money on food than we ever have before, we are getting good, quality meat and eggs.
It is a lot of work. I spend more time in the kitchen than I truly want, and sometimes, I'd rather be on the floor with the boys. But even when it FEELS like I am ignoring them for prepping food, I have to remember that what I am doing is for all of us.
I cannot expect God to bring healing to the boys if I am not willing to start at the beginning. This diet was so hard at first, and I DID not want to do it, but I did, and I believe it is the right course for us at this time. Dr. Natasha Campbell-McBride invented the diet, and she used it to cure her son of autism. I pray this diet will bring healing to my boys as well, and me, too, of my seizures.
I will be back to write again, hopefully. There is so much my heart longs to say. But I have to start somewhere.
Until then.
